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do you have problem with binging? how do you deal with it?
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story time no one cares about
so, I had a doctor appointment today (nothing special, just normal once-a-year checkout) and I went with my mom.
Everything was fine until it came to weighting (is that how you say it?? I’m not english sorry correct me all the way)
I know my weight (which is 129 lbs) so i wasn’t really stressed or something. But the worst thing wasn’t how much I weight. The worst thing was what my mom said after seeing the numbers.
she said “you know, when I was your age I was the same height as you, but I weighted 110 lbs and I thought I was really fat. You think you are fat?’‘ and I went “no haha of course not”
but I just can’t stop thinking about this, about how much my mom was thinner than me.
and I hate myself for it, I know it isn’ healthy and I would really like to kick this bitch ED right in the ass, but i think I’m gonna change my GW from 119 to 110
it might sound kinda stupid, but I am actually a little bit proud of myself. today my friend proposed me going to eat something so. many. times (pizza, fries, ice cream, milkshakes, macdonald, hot chocolate) and I didn’t go for any of the options! i just kept saying “no, thanks, my mom is cooking today so I can’t be full” and it felt so good to have control over this! im in such a good mood!
its not about being thin anymore
recently I’ve noticed something, which might be even more unhealthy.
I don’t restrict or fast to be thin anymore. I mean, yeah, I still need (in my opinion) to lose at least 10lbs and for sure I don’t want to gain.
but recently started to treat starving myself as a punishment or award (depends) or, usually, copying mechanism. I constantly catch myself thinking something like “alright, you wasn’t focused at classes today, next meal in 24 hours”
or if I’ve had a fight with someone I’m like “lets see how long I can starve myself for this one”
because if I feel like my life is falling apart, as I’m also dealing with anxiety disorders and depression, food it’s the only thing I can control
anyone else?
mood
* scrolling through tumblr and gallery full of thinspirations while cooking and eating to remember how much i should eat *
Tips, rules and things to remember
🌹 so, since I’m getting back in tracks, I figured out that I’m gonna list some tips for begginers, enjoy 🌹
🌊 drink 2,5 l - 3,5 l water everyday
🌊 don’t go over 800 kcal per day, but if you have some special event, like, family dinner etc. max. 1500 kcal is fine
🌊 drink only black coffe
🌊 green tea is your friend !
🌊 getting enough sleep is important; of course it’s healthy, but also, your body can burn even 400 kcal!
🌊 burned calories can’t be replaced
🌊 cut out all the bread, you should see the difference after three days
🌊 exercise regularly: I’ve discovered that it’s not about how hard you exercise, but how often
🌊 write everything down and actually count all the calories; don’t just assume how much you’ve eaten
🌊 if you can, cook by yourself
🌊 eat on smaller plates, it will trick your brain and you will eat less
🌊 drink glass of water before every meal
🌊 have your own snacks (if you going out somewhere) instead of buying them
🌊 it takes time to lose weight, so be patient, but to gain also; you won’t permanently gain after one binge
🌊 you gain weight on your period - mostly your body keeping water - it’s fine, don’t punish yourself for it
🌹 be safe, please 🌹
my (basic nothing special) everyday workout
- 2 minutes running
- 20 crunches
- 20 jumping jacks
- 20 squats
- 20 sit ups
((repeat 5 times))
((((or how much you’d like to))))
so I basically do some twenty-something-minutes workout from youtube (personal recomedation: Rachel Aust) after school, which is like something around 3PM-4PM, and then do this at like 8PM
and i don’t really know how much calories it can burn but i think something around 200
it honestly depends. sometimes I can live for weeks without even wanting to binge because for some reason I’m not hungry at all, but sometimes I binge like almost everyday.
what I do if I really, really want to binge is: I grab bottle of water (1l) and take a few sips. then i take one bite of food I’m about to binge, like chocolate for example, and after that I drink half of the bottle, take another bite, and then drink the rest of it. you’ll be feeling like you are full because of that food. of coure, you will still consume some calories, but it’s surely better than whole full binge.
realization
so, almost everyday me an my friends go grab something to eat after school (which I obvs don’t want to do).
today, after school no one actually asked if we are going or not, so I almost did it.
almost.
because when I opened my mouth to propose going somwhere and eating, I also realized something: I don’t want to eat, I’m not hungry, better, I could even say I’m full.
I’ve always eaten, because I was used to do it, I’ve never actually thought about it.
I feel so stupid that it taken me so long but also glad: food is not controlling me. I’m controlling me.
you have to have moment like this to feel and understand it. such a breaking through.
send me meanspo
today was terrible.
because of woman’s day I got to eat waaay over my calories limit, so please, send me some meanspos !!!
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